“Life has to end. Love doesn’t.”
– Mitch Albom
This quote is from one of my all time favourite books, The Five People you Meet in Heaven.
Today is my Mom’s birthday.
The room was as dark as hospital rooms could get. The beeping machines glowed next to the bed, soft yellow light filtered in from the passage along with the mundane chit-chat between the night nurses. Visiting hours was over and everyone had left, but I hovered, reluctant to leave.
“Come sit here,” my mom called me with a raspy tired voice. I sat beside her and could feel my body tense up with emotion, an iambic pentameter of silence passed between us.
“You are allowed to be sad Kates, you are allowed to cry. I haven’t seen you cry once. It’s OK to be sad,”she said, her eyes full of concern looked through me.
I clenched my jaw, “It’s not fair mom. I don’t care what anyone says, it’s not fair,” my anger faded as quickly as it had flared, my voice cracked, “I just don’t know what’s going to happen, I don’t know how we can live without you. I don’t want to live without you.”
“I will always watch over you, I will always be there and when you look up at the sky I will be the brightest star, that’s how you will know it’s me. I love you. We have this love and this love will never end, it knows no boundaries. They can never take this away from us.”
You were right Mom, they never could take this love away from us, but I would give anything in this world to spend one more day with you.
I miss you, I love you, I miss you even more.